Wednesday, February 1, 2012

For Sale

I am selling a bunch of my Lolita and Gothic clothes. Check them out

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Letter of loss

Dear Readers,
      I know that I always seem to be making excuses as to why I haven't been posting but this time I really needed time away. In the last week of October I went to Disney World for vacation with my best friend, Amy and her husband. We had a great time! Sadly on the drive back I got a call from my mother telling me that James, my fiance and partner for the past eight years, moved out all of his stuff from our apartment. I was and still am devastated.  I will be honest I had no clue that he was no longer happy in our relationship. The past year he has been living with me at our apartment and up in Fort Drum because of the surgery he had to receive after being in Iraq. The week after my vacation was when he was suppose to be home for good. All he left me was a note saying that he was no longer happy and could no longer be by my side.
    I don't know what to do anymore. I have lived with him for the past 5 years, we have always talked about our future together and now all that is gone in an instant. He left without even saying goodbye to my face. I have taken the steps to recover, if I can, from this but it will be a long time for the hurt to leave. I was so deeply in love with him, and I still love the person he was. I wish to be angry with him but I can't. You can't hate some you still love.
     Now I am moving back in with my parents because I can't afford to live on my own. I will have to get a storage unit for most of my stuff. My poor kitty went threw the stress of moving but she is coming out ok. All I have to say is I am so thankful for my family and friends. They truly are the ones keeping me going. If it wasn't for my mother I think I would be dead or close to it. I've come to understand I have no choice but to move on from this or the pain will kill me. All I know is I never thought this would be part of the story of my life.
   So starting soon, I hope, I will be back to posting. I still have the Lolita Challenge to finish and other things I hope to post. I love you all and Integrity, Love, and Unity.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

30 Day Lolita Challenge- Day 7

Day 7 – 10 people who inspire your Lolita style.

1) Kerli!!!!! She inspires all of my style not just Lolita. She inspires me in so many ways.

2)A lot of lovely ladies on tumblr 
      Lets go colorful
4)   Cadney

7) Lovely Ladies on blogger
8)  akumaxkami
9)  Miss Lumpy
10) Mickey in Wonderland (a fellow Moonchild)

There are so many more lovely ladies who inspire me all the time, not just in fashion. I love you all!

hehe random pic of me

Sunday, September 18, 2011

30 Day Lolita Challenge- Day 6

Day 6 – 10 things you can’t live without in Lolita.
1) Bloomers. These fellas help a lot when that right gust of wind decides to show up or when you need to bend down to pick something up. Lets not flash those frilly panties! 
2)A cute purse.With dresses being limited in pockets I def need a purse in my Lolita travels. My only problem is I keep filling them with too much stuff that my shoulder or arm always hurts by the end of the day. I think I need a cute small backpack instead.

3)Casual outfits. I love the days I can deck my self in head to toe Lolita but some days we just need something cute but simple to wear. I really don't pull out the blouse and my poofiest petti-coat when I know I am just gonna sit on the couch at home.

4)My camera. Not to be vain but whenever I am dressed up I want to take pictures to capture the cuteness. Almost every outfit gets a mini-photoshoot.

5)Boots. Ok so I do have some nice heeled shoes and my rocking horse shoes but boots are usually the shoes I pick to wear. For me the are the most comfortable Lolita suited footwear.(sometimes I'll even wear my combat boots...shhh)

6)Knee socks. To go with the boots. I love knee sock, they make the outfit most of the time. Sadly in the summer I don't wear them as often as I would like. I feel like tights don't add the right innocent look that I think Lolita needs.

7)The internet. Without this Lolita would have never came to me. I get all of my inspiration from fellow Lolita's and other styles. Also how else would we be able to buy these lovely dresses, I can't really just go to the mall, lol.

8)My confidence. I think that anyone who wears Lolita must have a strong level of confidence. Without it I think you'd be to scared to leave your home. You have to believe for yourself that you are beautiful because not everyone see it as beautiful.

9)The spirit of youth. For me it's what drew me to Lolita. When I wear Lolita I feel like a little girl playing dress up and I get to pretend to be a lovely princess, or a gothic queen, or maybe a magic fairy. Without the whimsy and dreaming of my inner child, Lolita wouldn't really be that fun.

10)My friends. They help make each day I dress up special. Even if it's just for them to say"you look so cute" or if we dress up together to hit the town. My friends are the ones who make my life special everyday, not matter if I'm wear Lolita or not.

So these list of 10 things are kinda hard man......

Thursday, September 15, 2011

30 Day Lolita Challenge- Day 5

Day 5 – 10 items on your wishlist.
1) Wonder Cookie Replica. I will never find this for real so I am willing to settle with a replica but I want it black!
2) Alice and the Pirates Vampire Forest JSK and yes in red!

3)Claudia by Baby
 4) Putumayo Cross Bag

5)A nice headdress. I don't have any! can you believe it?
6)So not a particular item but I do want a mori girl outfit. I love how earthy the are and probably a little more comfortable to wear all day.
7)Cute boots. I love boots in general and tend to wear them with almost all of my Lolita outfits. I want cuter combat style ones.
8)Sugar Pansy by Angelic Pretty. In either mint or yellow

9) A Kingdom Hearts styled jsk or something. I would love to put two of my fav things together!!!!!!!!

10) This is my biggest wish, more acceptance for individuality in the Lolita community. No more haters, no more mean comments to other girls. Just love everyone for who they are.

This one was fun. I got to really think about what I wanted. Sometimes I just push them to the back of my mind so that I don't have to feel bad about not having them. 

ps this post was finish around 12 am....i'm sleepy

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

30 Day Lolita Challenge- Day 4

Ok I did miss a day but I did close last night so I kinda have an excuse. :) On to day 4!
Day 4 – 10 different kinds of food you like.
1)Ok this isn't very "Lolita" but Grilled Cheese is my #1 fav food of all time. When I go out to eat I order this almost all the time, lol. It may be that little kid in me. James even makes me cute animals when he makes my grilled cheese.
2) Watermelon. One of the best things about summer!!!!

3)Real ramen, not the stuff from a bag(though that is good too) I'm talking a real Asian noodle shop. I've been to a few in NYC and I could eat at one every day!

4)Tacos, a nom nom nom nom

5)Cupcakes. Not really original but who doesn't love cupcakes?

6)Strawberries. I can have strawberries at every meal not matter what else I am eating. Like tonight I had clam chowder and strawberries.

7)Candy. Skittles, starburts, nerds, air heads, if it's sweet I love it!

8)Crackers. It may seem bland but this is my most common snack. 

9)My mothers home made cooking. Yes I said it, there is nothing better then my mommies home made food. Sometimes I go over just to see if she will make me something delicious.

10) Tea. Not really food but it is the biggest part of my diet. I drink tea morning, day, and night(thank god for decaf).

Sunday, September 11, 2011

30 Day Lolita Challenge- Day 3

Day 3 – 10 things you hate about Lolita.
1)Elitist. I hate those girls/guys who think that everything must follow the rules, that they are "better" Lolita's because they have the newest brand and they are deck out from head to toe in a complete collection. I hate how they nag on new girls about "how they are doing it wrong."  I'll be honest that is why I have never joined egl. I know that if someone I didn't know said I looked bad it would hurt me so I stay away from that.

2)Brand vs off brand debate. When it comes down to it yes we all know brand is better quality and more original but not everyone can afford brand so get over it. I started with Bodyline and I still shop from their site. Also I like replicas, it makes getting that design you loved easier.  Most replicas are made after the brand design is sold out so it's not really hurting there initial profits .
3) The rules. Yes the style should have basic guide line but every outfit doesn't need to fit into the rules. That's how Lolita happen, someone broke the rules somewhere.

4) The cost. Yes I can deal with it and I do pay it but the cost is still crazy.

5)Time. I don't have enough time to wear Lolita and I hate it! I work so hard to get the money to buy it and then I only get to wear it a few times a really sucks.

6)"Are you in a play? Are you going somewhere important?" the stupid questions. I've been getting annoyed by answering the same questions over and over. No one asked me if I was "depressed"  or "doing drugs" when I wore Gothic clothes.

7)The time it takes to get dresses. Ok I know most girls this is part of the fun but for me, doing make, doing my hair, and such is boring. I want to be in my clothes and cute in an instant!

8)Shoes. Not that I hate how cute the shoes are but they are so hard for me to shop for. I have a hard time as it is with normal shoes but buying shoes online is crazy and most of the time you can't even exchange them.

9)Lack of Lolita like activities in my area. There really isn't many Lolita's I know of in my town and a lot of the other CT Lolita seem so closed. I've tried to reach out to a few of them but nothing really comes of it. :(

10)Distance. This encompasses so many things. The Hub of this fashion is across the world. When you order from over seas is takes so long. But the biggest thing I hate is that all the awesome Lolitas I've met online live so far away, I wish I could have a giant tea party with them all.

Day 3 has no pretty pics, sorry